letting cold, cold wind take handfuls of glittery things from my fists,
over stark gray skies and bare trees and smooth hills
this is how i would like to love my next lover.
WHAT IS THE ORIGIN OF THE TERM, LOW GRADE SQUAMOUS INTRAEPITHELIAL LESION?
Low grade squamous intraepithelial lesion comes from the Middle English word “lah” meaning “low,” the Latin word “gradus” meaning “a step,” the Latin word “squama” meaning “scale,” the Latin word “intra” meaning “within,” the Greek word “epi” meaning “upon,” the Greek word “thele” meaning “nipple,” and the Latin word “laesus” meaning “an injury.” Put the words together and you have “low a step scale within upon nipple an injury.”
I went home to see my dad today and he told me that when I was little my mom used to say that I was “emotionally stunted.” When I asked what she meant by that he told me I used to come home really upset from school quite often, claiming that people were not friends with me fast enough. I seemed confused by the period of getting to know one another and didn’t understand why it had to be there.
Dad showed me his pot plant behind the shed and told me that he used to have about ten plants at our first house. I asked him if he sold it and he said, “Hell, no! I used to just bring it to rugby practice. They all called it Mingo Green. We used to get so ripped on it.”
Later as I swept up dead stink bugs and stomped on living ones, my dad asked about my mom and then helped me figure out what the song was that she used to sing all the time.
remembering tour. and recreations.
i’m fucking growing, okay? give me a break.
I will let her go if i need to but i don’t know if i need to.
I will let her go if she wants to go, but I can’t tell if she wants to go.
No one has any answers. What am I supposed to do?
waiting for a sign, but it has not come.i took this photo the first year we met.